Hannah B.
Born on February 6th, 2001 in Dallas - Fort Worth, Texas.
It feels like you're really heavy. It feels like you're not really able to enjoy or find anything really meaningful. I would say physically, it just, it feels like you're, you've been working out and you’re just sore all the time. I feel like it just is this chronic pain. And it's kind of just something that you carry.
It started when I was, like, really young. I kind of just felt different in a sense where I felt very sensitive to things that were happening to me. It kind of made me feel like something was wrong, but I couldn't, like, pinpoint it. I kind of just thought, oh, I'm just this sensitive person and I need to control that. But when I would talk to some of my friends about it openly, they would kind of just be confused because, like, they had, they were like, what are you talking about? Like, I don't, like, I feel that way, but I don't feel that way. And so it made me wonder why, like, what - if it, it was something that, like, really affected me. And that's when I eventually like, seeked help because it was to the point where days where I just, I felt so confused.
Therapy has helped me a lot. Also like finding support groups online. It, it was kind of something that I felt embarrassed about because, when people usually say you have a shrink, they just assume you're crazy, just mentally ill and unfortunately, that's, like, that kind of a stigma that society has put on it.
But I have learned now that it's not like something that where people just - nobody chooses, nobody wakes up and like, chooses to be feeling sad. Like nobody just wakes up and goes, I want to have a really shitty day. Like. And so that was just something that I kind of just, was trying to understand
I feel like I owe it to, like, my, my family, my sisters. I feel like, I want to make a difference. And I feel like I have a lot of potential, and that's pretty much what keeps me going. I still have, like, a lot of dreams, a lot of desires. And I just want to be able to wake up one day and like, say, like, I, I got what I wanted.