My downfall, not downfall, but drug of choice, if you will, a long time ago was Xanax. I was prescribed to them and just let them take over. As far as like they became the number one priority for me in life, as far as everything really.

It's benzodiazepine. It's, you got GABA receptors in your brain and they basically are an antagonist to your GABA receptors. And there's four main ones. You got alprazolam, which is Xanax. You got clonazepam, which is Klonopin. And you have lorazepam which is Ativan. And then diazepam is Valium.

For me they just work against your fight or flight response system in your brain to where you no longer really worry about consequences or what people think, I guess, about you or anything. It kills your morals and ethics. In that moment, I feel like. Like I wouldn't be opposed to stealing from a friend. I mean, nothing even big, it could be like a two liter Coke in the fridge. Normally you don't do that because you have respect about yourself and morals and ethics and you don't do that. But on something like that, that is not there as a filter. So, yeah. But at the same time, it makes you feel great as far as, like if you naturally have like a little bit of anxiety, it makes you just one hundred percent all around, just feel better.

Benzodiazepine withdrawal is horrible. Agitation. Like insomnia. Restless leg. Basically. You know Restless Leg Syndrome? Like, having that in your whole body. Just like ehh, it’s not good. You're not supposed to quit cold turkey because you could have seizures and like, get killed from it. But, for me, I just made a decision that I didn't want to take anything like that, and I haven't had them in a long time. I had them in, like, eight years.