Therapy has helped me, you know, with the shoulda coulda woulda. Stuff like that. And, you know, being able to identify why I am the way that I am now because of, you know, emotionally unavailable parents. But, I don’t know. I, you know, I, just going to therapy was terrifying for me. Going to my first appointment, I cried all the way there. Because I was terrified. And, you know, already, crying, trying not to cry in the waiting room before I went in, just from anxiety. So. Cause it was just unknown to me.

You know, I've been, age appropriately, I've been honest with my daughter about, you know, if I have issues with something, you know, I try to be more open with her. Especially about, you know, my social anxiety and things of that nature. But, just I, I didn't know how you did a birthday for a little kid. So. And my daughter's 14 now. But when she was little and in kindergarten, you know, just trying to coordinate, you know, a birthday party. And so I had no idea. And so I had to get help with that. But just making an effort, you know, in every aspect.

She’s allowed to have emotions and, you know, that's normal. Not seen as dramatic or something like that. I just, I don't want that for my daughter. I don't want her to have those feelings. And, you know, I want her around. So I appreciate the relationship that we have.

Really just seeing her happy. And in band, she plays the trumpet, and, she's really enjoying marching, and it's - her joy makes me happy that I'm doing something right. And so that makes me happy.