I know that this is my passion and what I’m meant to do. And I will explain it to them and tell them, like, hey, like, I want to be doing this. I want to do photography. I want to maybe go on tour with, like, some band and photograph them and, there is a point where my dad did tell me, like, I told him it was my dream to do that, and in Spanish he told me, pues, despiertate, like, wake up. And I was like, ohh, my gosh.

I think I was 21 at that point. And I, I would say at that point I felt like, oh, is, can I actually do this? Like, would it be even possible? And the answer I came up with was, well, it could be something that you do on the side, but kind of create a career of some sort.

But the work that I do here, the community work and, in the arts, also, I feel like I still have some things to do before I leave, in a sense? But sometimes I'll feel a little bit disappointed. But, I'm able to kind of do like a full circle moment, like a check-in. Like, hey, look at everything you've done, like, all the people you've met. Like, just recognize the accomplishments that, like, I've, you know, I've done.

And so, yeah, it's like a battle. Sometimes I'm kind of mean to myself. And other times I feel I'm able to tell myself like, hey, you're fine. Like, you're so young. Like, you don't even have to, like, be secure right now. It's okay, you know?