I was having a lot of pain. Gosh, probably like, six years ago, and thought that I had, rheumatoid arthritis, and actually had gotten a false positive off the test, and they redid the test, and I do not have rheumatoid arthritis. I have fibromyalgia. And so they, the rheumatologist prescribed me pain medicine specifically for that type of pain, and I took that. By the time I'd been taking it for about a year, that's when the aphasia started. And apparently it's, it's, if there's a side effect of something that's really rare, I'm going to have it. It's just the way things affect me.

It kind of comes and goes depending on the stress level. And it's not just forming the, it's like I can, sometimes I can even see the word spelled out visually in my mind. But I cannot get my vocal cords to say it. I could like draw a picture of what it was or something sometime, but I can't. It's just a, it's a weird block. And I don't even say you know, say if I'm standing up and trying to, you know, complete my sentence. I don't even say um, like that doesn't even come up because I'm not, I'm not trying to think of it. I know what it is. It just physically will not come.

And then, further from that, some other things that, that have started, when I type if there is, and writing sometimes that's kind of a new thing. Typing words, say that there are, like, I've seen something or a scene in a movie. Words that sound the same or similar spellings but have different meanings or whatever. I, if I was trying to say, I have seen this movie, I would spell, “I have scene” like a scene in the movie and still, I switch those words. Don't even think about it. Don't even realize I'm doing it until I read back. And I've, it's very, very odd . And my doctor's like, okay, all right. You know, I guess it's that's something that not most people do